As I lie awake

As I lie awake

these questions i ask myself when i should be asleep
quietly dreaming of love and sheep
Gently i lay and close my eyes,
creeping darkness paralyze.
Forgotten sadness crept back in
Forgotten days forgotten sins
Forgotten agony and forgotten tears
I forgot about you, and its been years.

I forgot your smile and i forgot your tone,
i forgot the way you'd pull my hair, i forgot how you moaned.
I forgot the curve of you body, i forgot the way you smelled.
The only thing i want to forget is that you put me through hell.
For all the things i never knew and all the things i'd missed
maybe i could've better understood you had I not gone amiss.
The blood satined the sheets, days had already gone by
How could this happen.the life has left your eyes
A squeeze of a trigger and a violent burst.
So much for lies; and so much for my being coerced.

I've forgotten everything now, all thats left is a name
that gun was your narcotic. it took away your pain.

Damien Jay Bell

Copyright ©2006 Damien Jay Bell